The Spiritual Cause of Endometriosis
Recently I found myself dancing and swaying with a man in a way my body had been craving. I told him that I wanted to lean back onto his chest and just move my body any way that came through me – to just let go and really feel the music. He happily obliged. He held my waist and stroked my arms as I swiveled my hips and relaxed my head back into him. This felt glorious and liberating to my system.
I felt so anchored by his presence and so landed in my own body – like scattered pieces of my energy came flooding back to me.
Even today, going about mundane tasks like cleaning the kitchen and schlepping the clothes out to the laundry shack, I am feeling so, so home in my body.
And I landed the answer to:
“What is the spiritual cause of endometriosis?”
A woman who has endometriosis has been trying to find an emotional home and putting down roots in painful places.
Endometriosis is uterine tissue that has run amok. This womb tissue grows in places that are not the womb which usually causes the woman an agonizing amount of pain. The growth of this rogue tissue is driven by estrogen – which is a building or proliferative hormone. So in essence, it is womb tissue that moves to another, inappropriate location, puts down its roots, and starts building itself up by cranking out the hormone that makes itself grow.
Clever girl.
But why do that?
If we look deeper into the mind and the heart of the woman, we will see that she has been putting down mental and emotional roots in places that do not serve her health or happiness. It is as if the feminine has been running around (migrating cells) and putting down roots (growing new cells) in painful places (outside of the womb/home).
She does this because her heart longs to feel at home and indeed is unable to feel safe in her own body – because, with the cyclical, painful bouts of endometrial flare-ups, the body becomes an incessant rival.
This is a physical manifestation of the abandonment and rejection wounds and often stems from having a parent who was not attentive, even while present.
So she latches on to things, people, and ideas that could feel like home – even if they hurt. All the while she feels spread out – weakened by her tender & unpredictable condition. Constantly building something new; constantly searching for a home.
Before a woman can truly feel at home with a man, she must first put down roots inside her own body, in the center of her femininity – in her womb. Otherwise, she will sink into entitlement and isolation when she fears that her sense of home and safety are threatened.
Most healthy men will tell you that they love to be that safe anchor for their woman and their family – they are wired to do so. Yet he cannot be her only source of security. Her real sense of safety starts with being anchored in God and it can be a process – depending on your current state of mind and body.
Gentlemen, if your woman has endometriosis or you just want her to be able to relax into you, help her to feel anchored by becoming more anchored yourself. Look for pockets of chaos that you bring to the table and see how you being centered and decisive has a soothing effect on her nervous system.
Try standing behind her and let her lean back into you as she moves her body and shimmies and dances. Just be there with her, move with her. Feel how, with you as the post behind her, she can let go even 5% more and get out of her head. Feel how she drops down into herself. Feel how the pillar of your support turns her on and opens her to you.
Ladies, you don’t have to have endometriosis to benefit from this sensual dance of polarity and trust. When a man allows me to dance with him like this, I feel so incredible present in my body and I soften right into him. It’s really lovely. (I highly recommend “I’ll Take You There” by the Staple Singers. Lawd, that’s hot.)
If you are between dance partners, you can try this practice with God and a wall or a door jam. Lean back onto the pillar of God’s power in your life. Allow yourself to feel His mast of support behind you. Move your body and loosen all the areas that feel tight or restricted. Let yourself be wild and sensual before the Divine. Feel how that gathers you back to yourself.
Sometimes we need to pick up the pieces of our scattered energy and come all the way back home to ourselves. It is the home within yourself that must come first, no matter what weird things the world is doing.
Come on back now. Your power is waiting.
